What should i do

I sit here today, my eyes full of tears.
but i refuse to let them run
i refuse to let them wet my cheeks.
but why am i teary?

I cant really explain why
but i feel misunderstood
i feel unknown
Like a stranger in my loved ones lives

Do i not know how to express me
or they just don't pay attention
is my voice not sharp enough
or are they not even trying to listen

A friend says nobody is understood
but i beg to differ
i understand many
i can relate
but i cant make them get that i get it
that i understand

So what now
do i just keep it to myself
do i just go on like am OK
or should i run

I wan go away
to someplace unknown
where no one can come looking
where my tears can run freely

Or maybe i should just sleep
and dream
My dreams these days are better than my reality
how sad, its actually supposed to be the opposite