A trillion pieces

lil sis: how is your boyfriend?
me: o.O
lil sis: do you have a boyfriend?
me; nooooo.....
lil sis: why not?
me: (because i was stupid enough to love one who loves another) I just dnt
lil sis: then how will you get married?
me: uhm well i dnt know

My lil sister can not understand why i dnt have someone by my side, why am not head over hills about some hot cute guy. She cant get why someone could possibly not be in love.

To her love is still the most the most beautiful thing there is. she is  happy with her boyfriend, its really cute. So she was confused about why am letting such joy pass me by. I realized my lil sis has not been hurt(not in the worst way at least) , she was still innocent. Her heart was never broken into a trillion pieces. I kinda envy her.

I could not tell her my story, i didn want to relive the memories but most importantly i didn want her beautiful painting of love to be ruined so i changed the topic. But its refreshing to know someone out there still believes in love as much as i once did.

Cut off

evidently I am cut off.. Is it fair? well i cant quite tell. but one thing for sure is that it sucks a whole bunch.

Save me

i have realized something about myself , i dnt like it though, but its who i might be at the current moment. I am filled with ideas, creative , innovative ideas. but i dnt know how to share them . what am basically trying to say is i might have a communication problem. its kind of stressful.

there is one person who just gets me though, from the pieces of random information i feed them they can make out what i am trying to say. but i dnt know if they like doing being that, because i might come across as annoying and maybe even a little retarded. (i hope not)

Anyway i just thought it should be known that with me a lot great innovations might go down because of my inability to communicate information well. though i do hope it is just a temporary issue that will go away with time and practice